A Favorite Song: Jar of Hearts

officially obsessed with these lyrics

I know I can't take one more step towards you

Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And learn to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Keep Moving!

Around this time of year... every.year, people start making their highly anticipated New Year Resolutions.  And whilst I hear all of these magnificent objectives being averred with full intent, I also hear the same people simultaneously declare their eventual failure to see any of their resolutions into full fruition. 

"My resolution is to exercise more... but I know in two months, my running shoes will be covered in dust, hiding in the back of my closet."  

"I am going to make an effort to volunteer more... but we'll see how busy I am at work."  

Lighting a cigarette: "I'm going to quit smoking."

Don't Limit Yourself

These are all wonderful goals!  They are all things, that if acted upon, would contribute to a balanced lifestyle.  In fact, I have similar goals.  So yay!  Yay for conjuring up a few ambitions!

But BOOOO!  Boo for setting ourselves up for failure, year after year after year.

Rather than resolving to modify my lifestyle on an annual basis and watching change fly away, I have decided to look at resolution as an attitude as opposed to a goal.

And my attitude of resolution goes a little something like this:

To be better and better and better, to keep looking ahead, to strive to be the best version of myself that I can possibly be.  To embrace variance.  To love and be loved.

Endless Possibilities

I, for one, believe that once I stop setting myself up for failure, and once I make a promise to myself that life is not about yearly delusions, but rather a shift in overall attitude, that I will accomplish all that I need and want to... whenever I am supposed to.  Maybe not in 2011, or in 2019.

2042, perhaps?

But one way or another, I'll get there.  Because I know that I'm not done.  I never will be.

Keep Moving!

I am the Luckiest

As I drove in this morning, I felt completely surrounded by love.  

I looked in the backseat to see my little boy smiling at me, for no apparent reason.  Just smiling this cute little smile, squinting his perfect eyes in bliss.  This happens often, to both me and my husband:  We will be going about our business and turn to find Liam staring at us, admiring us quietly.  But it never gets old... it never loses it's specialty.  

It is in these moments that I feel so incredibly happy, and so proud to be raising such a wonderful little boy.  Already, he knows his own significance in love.  

I'm not sure I could ask for more of a blessing....

  

 

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